i am and always was

I lay on the grass in front of my home, eyes filled with sky

tree branches penetrate my view

I breathe in deeply 

and blow out the air I have just taken in 

and made mine

my exhale is powerful; I make the trees sway with my breath

I am the wind, 

mixing together green and sky

inside my house I am closed, 

I am hurt

I am heavy-eyed

here I am open, arms and legs sprawled out 

to let everything in

the more space I take up, 

the more I am a part of

I am nothing but light; my pupils grow large as the sky pours into them 

like honey, 

slowly coating my irises 

thick with air 

I am so full of light that I float up, 

And rest on top of the branches.

I am high

I am a crow searching for someone to paint her

I have black feathers black feet and black eyes

I have taken everything in, I absorb it all with my blackness 

every color

The wind moves the branch I sit upon, yet I stay still.

Did I say I am everything? I am